sakedrinking | [Sixty Eighth Cord]: [Locked from Hostiles] [Video]

[Video comes on to a rather crooked view of Haku sitting on her bed. Her hair is braided, and though she's still in a nightgown, she looks like she cleaned up a little since she was seen last. She's blinking in confusion, though, apparently aware that the angle is off.]

Ah... Phasco...

Huh? ... oops, sorry, kid.

[Camera view is righted]

Better?

Yes. Thank you, Phasco.

[Haku nods, but hesitates, seemingly gathering herself before speaking again]

I'm... better. I'm not okay. I know I won't be okay until he's awake and I know that he's going to be alright. But... I'm better...

Firstly... I want to apologize to my family. I know now I've caused everyone a lot of pain and heartache by being so wrapped up in my own... that wasn't right for me. And. I'm sorry... I know for some of you that might not be enough... and if I've burned any bridges with my actions, well... this is all I can offer...

[deep breath]

Last night... Len experienced another personality switch. This one was different than the others. He was... aware of himself, the past lives, and who Len was now. He still called himself Len, but he spoke about events that happened in... in a song I sang only once. A song that caused me to collapse on stage. Called Daughter of White. He showed me the necklace that Rin found, with the pictures of the people that looked like them and said that he was... well. Him. The Len from the past. But he also said that he had died, and experienced things he couldn't exactly remember, but he could feel.

He had chains... on his wrists and ankles. They weren't solid, but I could see them.

Whichever one this was... he gave me insight in to Kokoro that we've never had before. And that I was... some how a part of their story, the story that started it all. It's probably why Daughter of White made me collapse... I couldn't handle it, for some reason. My... my Kokoro couldn't handle it...

For the same reason the twins are experiencing these personality switches. He had no idea how to keep them from happening, but he did assure me that our Rin and Len were the dominate personality - they will always come back, because we're... we're the life that breaks the cycle of hurt and pain and revenge.

[tears have started to fall down her cheeks, but she doesn't stop]

All of this made me realize that what I did with the Bloodclan was wrong. Even if they need to be stopped, it doesn't need to be like that. And he made me realize there's still hope... even now.

[she pauses long enough to rub at her eyes with her sleeve, though it doesn't make the tears go away. Her voice cracking indicates this]

I'm not okay... I'm not. I just want my husband back. Wedding or no wedding he is my happiness just as much as my family is... but I promise... as wrong as it may feel some times, I won't push anyone away anymore. I won't try to run off. I'm going to try to get my life back in order and... and wait for Eikichi to come back to me...

[another deep breath, and she lowers her arm again, folding her hands in her lap]

Dell... I think we need to talk.

Jade, Dist... we might need to talk, too.

Everyone else... thank you for being so patient with me. And, again... I'm sorry...

Okay, Phasco...

[click]

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Current Location: Hyperion